Why Is It that It Is All Here Again
There is little doubt who runs the internet porn industry, it is the Russian & Ukrainian Mafia. The incidence of kiddy porn aimed at mainly hetero males is overwhelming. Firstly, there is the teen network, with a mix of legal & illegal images, then there is the kiddy porn or child pornography & they are very upfront about their product. The advertising tells us to go to a site & get 6 to 11 year old girls in hard porn & sure enough there it is & you can download immediately. Adult males are sexually abusing little girls or young boys around 12 or 13, are induced to do the abuse the poor unfortunate young girl.
Surely there has to be a way to rid the internet of these very disturbing images. Maybe someone could invent the kiddy porn virus that only attacked those sites that carry pedo porn. This evening I decided to search with the words teen and nude just to see the return. Sure enough the teen sites came up, some legal others bordering on illegal, then the young girl model sired started appearing. These teen model sites are very interesting as they purport to be legal sites but all seem to have links to kiddy porn sites. The girls used in the model sites seem to appear on the nude photo & porn sites. I am Gay & I have seen so many sites that purport to be Gay turn out to be illegal young porn or nude sites. But with the Gay sites they tend to cover up until you get there & then hit you with all the images of young teen boys or even younger if they are bold enough. But these heterosexual sites don’t even try to pretend they are anything but pedo sites.
The advertising on the links lists is very upfront inducing the punter to download images of naked girls between the ages of 6 & 16. Then there is the advertising for the heavy duty kiddy porn which is even more upfront & quite chilling. It is even more confronting with the images hiding under the main page and jumping up at you when you close the page. These images are explicit and frightening in content with tearful young girls raped and abused violently. There seem to be no checks & balances in the eastern block. Next year I am studying Psychology at Uni & the area that interests me most is Deviant Sexual Behaviour or Abnormal Sexual Behaviour. My long term goal is to become a Forensic Psychologist or to write about sexual serial killers. There are several reasons for this, one of which is that I was molested as a child & raped twice as an adult. I also know many people who are the victims of child sexual abuse or paedophilia. There is another reason in that so many gay guys at around forty start to change their sexual behaviour & get into stuff like SM & B&D but why? Today guys are doing this stuff much earlier than when I came out. I am fascinated by people like John Wayne Gacy & Jeffery Dahmer & more than a bit sickened by Andre Chikalito. I am also fascinated by the attitude of people like Dolly Dunne who maintained until the day he died that what he did was natural. I don’t understand what is natural about taking a young person’s will away and replacing it with your own.
What motivates people like John Bunting to kill people & put them in a bank vault in a quiet little place like Snowtown. What makes a mild mannered person like Bevan Spencer Von Einam turn into one of the most hated serial killers of our time. Is Von Einam covering for others as purported or is he just leading the police up the garden path in a psychotic little game? I have digressed from the subject somewhat but the point is now made. What makes a person use a child for their sexual pleasure? Certainly the males on the porn sites are using them for the money to be gained by world wide distribution. But what about all those dreadful men in suburbia molesting their sons and daughters, nieces and nephews and any other boy or girl that happens to be there at the time? Is paedophilia a learned behaviour or is it genetic or a bit of both? The one thing I do know is that it is very harmful to children, as I can attest as I still have post traumatic stress syndrome from being child raped and also raped as an adult. I have also developed anxiety disorder and over dream failing to sleep soundly. I can also burst out crying at any given time and shake or lose my temper easily without reason. I live in a nightmare in my own mind as the obsessive compulsive part of the post traumatic stress syndrome takes over.
I have decided there are two separate psychological conditions in this area of study, the child sexual abuser (abusers) and the paedophile (peds). A child sexual abuser is a person who will sexually, kidnap and rape a child but very seldom repeat the act with the same child. About a quarter of abusers repeat abuse. They convince the child his/her parents will be angry with the child if they tell and continue to abuse the child. But most abusers rape and move on to the next child and abusers are the ones who kill children. Peds are different in that they believe they love the child. They have convinced themselves that the child loves them back and the child invites the sexual contact. They also have convinced themselves they are not doing the child any harm.
I am going to break paedophilia into two as well, there are those who operate alone and those who set up and participate in networks. The lonewolf ped is one who will hang around playgrounds, sports ovals, schools, cinemas, shopping centres and community centres in the hope of meeting a child. They procure children slowly, they do not molest or abuse, they cajole, offer rewards like lollies or money and they train children to behave the way they want. They may take months getting to the sexual stage but this is always the end result. The child is trained to play sexual games or rewarded for sex, therefore the child sees it either as a game or a benefit. Lonewolf peds never mix with other peds and they don’t even have internet contact with them. The lonewolf ped may use the internet to procure children but this is doubtful as he sees himself as giving a helping hand and has convinced himself he is doing some good.
The Network paedophile is a totally different animal. Dolly Dunne fits into this category as he networked with a group of other men and couldn’t wait to show them a new find. The network has a hierarchy of older males who have procured and trained a group of younger men when they were children to procure other children for them.